Nothing Makes Him Stay

I knew him,I was caught in and he stoops me to conquer fear.
I was in Love with Love and the future seems so bright with no slight of blur. Don't call it madly in love,for to be mad is to lose senses, I was sanely overwhelmed with a man Love makes me Love. Yes it was inexplicable as I was completely swept off my feet,so I never figure out why's.
His smiles put smiles on my face, his giggles makes me tickle,even,when he frowns,it amuses me and of course his laughter makes me laugh out loud. No ration to what Love can do.
I was the set priority kind of lady as I always like to hit my target and give less room for distractions. My relationship wasn't a distraction as I fear it would derail my academic pursuits.Though,I became carried away at times,perhaps its necessary to feel that way. Albeit,I was strong,focus,determined,optimistic and uphold faith in God. Have you ever experienced that feelings of security balance because your relationship is like an Omega? That exactly was how I felt without any doubt or questions tag.Or why should I,when he gave me no reasons for heart puzzle.Plus,shall we say I was just Loving,loving him.? Frantically!Exactly!

Three solid years of dating with lots of goodies embedded. Hangouts, picnic treat,cinemas show,shopping spree,surprises and gifts showers. One of such romantic escapades was when I threw him a surprised birthday Bach. He's the busy types that hardly had time for fun. I was the brain behind all our fun spree. So that night, I traveled over to his place, just a few hours drive from my abode and he wasn't expecting my coming. I sounded my 'hello' with a warm hugs telling him he needs to follow me to somewhere. He asked to know where and I told him its called a "somewhere of no destination". He scoffs at my remark and utter Nay to my request. Well,I don't take a 'No' for an answer. So, after much persuasion of sweet tonguing him,we left for my somewhere of no destination and he got the most thrilling moments of his Life seeing his parents,siblings,friends and few of his old friends he had lost contacts with as they flush him with surprise birthday shout outs in champagne flute. He was bewildered and overjoyed. He smiles throughout the whole night with a smashing first ever sex we ever had. Had been on defensive guard all while but went weird that night as ecstasy filled the air and down on a sensuous romantic clench letting out all of me and the passion was so intense being the first and I wasn't sorry for getting laid..We had a blast and it was meant to last forever. "I thoughts".

Getting a good grade,having a man in my life and a good paying job was an icing in the cake. I was a happy-go-lucky. I would visit his family on a weekend helping with cooking and laundry.That was my hobby and it wasn't a big deal afterall. At times I helped out with his siblings financial issues and they would lashed me with tons of gratitude.
When will he proposed? My mother would ask and all I would say is "I don't know yet".
Truth is I wanted him so badly to proposed but I was very diplomatic about it,so as not to act pushy.
Oh I can't wait to wait the wait of spending the "till death do us united" and not "apart" with this man I Loved wholeheartedly.

Alas!My dream turns to a mere nightmare and my hope went torment. It appeared my whole world came crashing down and all I could do was to sit in the debris of my shattered life.
My guy is getting married to another lady. I got the sent to death news right in his family house. In fact,his mother broke the news to me with no curtsy and Gosh I saw the lady life and direct.His only sister whom I had a close relationship with tried to calm down my perturbed spirit and I never knew how I got home that day. Perhaps, it was my head I used in walking or my leg,I knew not.
My parents tried placate me. I was getting insane. It was obvious I was insane. My gloom amidst sorrow.
It took me three worst years to recover from my insanity as I often ask "Why Can't he Stay"? He only managed to say "I'm sorry".
But How?Why?I recaps back to our memories...What???
How come he never stays with me?
I loved him,I sacrificed for him,I care for him,I gave him my all,I put my resources into the relationship. Time,energy,money,soul,body,mind and everything else I ever could give.
I was happy being me.
Being me was all I gave.
How come it wasn't enough to hold him?
How come it never makes him stay?
(Based on true life story)...
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A man stays only when he choose to. Nothing buys his stay. It doesn't matter whether you are good or bad.
Have you ever wondered how good guy end up marrying a bad wife?
Imagine how a bad guy settled with a good wife.
That can be disheartening, isn't it?
Well,on the good side, A good guy can gets a good wife and a bad guy can gets a bad wife on the contrary.
However,the exact uncommon truth is,there isn't anything exactly you can do to make him stay.
If you ever nurture the myth of going extra mile just to get a guy,have a rethink,because,nothing makes him stay.
If good hearted ones scarcely gets him to stay then the bad wagon should be careful.
Nothing really makes him to stay
Only when he chooses to or better still when God wants him stay.
However,do not lay it down on air floats. Care because you can care, Love because you can Love and give because you can give. If he's meant to stay nothing will stop him and if he's not meant to stay nothing,stops him either.

The story above was based on true event that unfolds and I saw how my (Cousin) languish in such anguish.
Sometimes God doesn't just give us what we want but what we deserve.
Its as Real as Real

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